Well????? Functioning at a 3-6 month level at over two years is well????
It's such an unfair process. We didn't have the info before, we couldn't prepare. The questions I had prepared no longer seemed relevant. Why don't they give it to you a week before? It's one thing to know that Grace is behind, it is a whole other thing to have it appear on paper... be given a few minutes to review it, and then asked for questions. And in your own home..... I wasn't wearing shoes.... I should have been wearing a "power-suit."
Had our team lost hope? Did they not love Grace? Do they not believe in her? Are we just their job? I'm not giving up..... were they? I cried. I cried all the way back to work. I tried to concentrate.
But as always it only took a little time with Grace to realize that it is my job to be Grace's advocate, my job to be her constant, my job to encourage, dream, and cheer. I only have to do that --- ultimately what that paper says does nothing to define my daughter.
And as if Grace felt she further needed to teach me, as she and I shopped last night at the grocery store, in the vegetable section, Grace on my hip, swinging her legs... she happened to kick over a pole that holds those plastic bags for your vegetables and fruit. Anyhow, the roll of bags went flying the pole made a big noise - and a woman came rushing over to help me. She pointed at Grace- poked her in the tummy and looked at her warmly saying.... you did this didn't you! I wanted to yell -- Yes she did! I love her! I'm so proud of her! She's my two year old! Instead I said -Yup it was her - with what I imagine was a huge goofy smile on my face. That's the story I will remember - that I will tell her - and that I will tell other people when they ask about her.